assalamualaikum. It’s been a long time that I didn’t show up in my blogging world and to be honest, I don’t know what exactly I want to write today! Since I have been in long term holiday. Longer than anyone, I’ve been watching a lot of reality television programme and I really attractive to the story of the little people story on TLC channel, like Our Little Family, Little people Big World and The Little Couple. These three stories is about how these little people so independent by taking their responsibility. They shows how’s their life. They shows their daily life. I have been inspired by them. They might be small than a normal person but they have the confidence which I the normal person did not have it and I wish I could have the same confidence like they are. They can do anything, go everywhere they wanted and sometimes more challenging than a normal person. All they have is that confidence and determination. Oh man! That is what I always wanted in my life! I didn’t get it yet but In She Allah soon. I will work on it.

Okay! I am done with the shows. To be honest, I have been working for this writing for a few days before. The day when I’m the only one in the house who still watching TV and took my late snack and start wrote on the book. I know. You can stop laugh now. Internet tak dak! Takut idea lari. Terpaksa guna buku. But hey! I proud course I made a comebackkkkkk! Haha

This story is pointless but hey! Nobody cares. Nobody want to read this and that is my point. Since I’m not good on telling people a story. I’m possibly a good listener but so bad on sharing story. Failure on express my own feeling because I’m thinking that people might be not interested with my dummy story and I might be a super annoying person to them. My friends called me mysterious because they know less about me. Haha! But peeps, trust me it’s hard to find a person who we can trust. Carry our own feelings, our own secrete is the best choice we have but MOM knows everything even we hide under bed haha!

These few month are so bad! This punishment is killing me! My mind is so messy, especially for my future plan. I feel that I totally screw everything! I have no idea what I’m going to do. I have no plan. I am thirsty or confidence. Leak of motivation. I start to feel that I am the looser or more even worst. I know I should not feel this way but I kind of searching for the answer or a problem solver! I don’t want some kind of metaphor words in speech. I want a final answer like the examination question of mine! Some people just give up on their way, but I think I haven’t push enough my effort to be better but in the same time I just can’t think a better ways. I assume that my brain is not good enough or maybe it’s useless? Haha!

  The older I am I become to realize that life is not easy like in my dream when I was a kid. It’s worst! They said life is too short, so we should make our every single moment to be a joyful and full of happiness. Most of those people I seen in the reality shows was so strong to face their problem. How can they be so positive?? I wish I can be that kind of person. I tried but still don’t have that strength.

As I mention before, this story is pointless. My super humble dummy story I don’t expect for a reader but kalau ada juga mohon maaf kerana terpaksa menyusahkan anda dengan membaca my broken English ni. Orang cakap practice make perfect kan? Haha!

Buah cempedak di luar pagar,

ambil galah tolong jolokkan,

saya budak baru belajar,

salah silap tolong tunjukkan.

19/11/2014 HELLO

assalamualaikum. lamanya membisu. Mohon maaf blog semakin terabai. selama membisu terlalu banyak perkara yang berlaku namun tidak dapat dikongsi kerana terlalu banyak. Kita update muka baru je la. hehe

salam sayang dari owner. muah!

SPM dah Lepas

                                                                Assalamualaikum
Saya yg dulunya mengaku bagai nak rak jadi blogger tegar .. Bila sebut "TEGAR" masing-masing dalam fikiran yang tiap hari saya akan publish sesuatu dekat blog dan itu dulu. Sekarang? dah tak boleh sebut tegar dah sebab saya semakin kurang publish sesuatu dekat blog. Selalu buat blog terbiar Perasan tak? perasan? . Bukan apa.. cuma tidak tau topik apa yg mau dibincangkan . Namun begitu, Cehhh bahasa tu kannn hahahaha. Namun begitu cinta ku terhadap blog masih mekar bak bunga yg sedang mekar di taman. Cehwahh dah macam ayat kekasih pula kan. Mohon pengikut jangan bosan menunggu dan membaca entry saya ok? nanti saya nangis tau.. :'( jangan k? hahaha. Ok baiklah, seperti yang anda semua tau result SPM bagi sesi tahun 2013 sudah pun keluar ! Batch 96 sila angkat tangan tinggi-tinggi saya mau bagi tau yang kita satu batch haha. Ya Allah betapa takut dan gerun bila buat countdown result tu, tidur pun tidak lena, sebab asyik terfikir tentang result . Syukur alhamdulillah keputusan baik-baik sahaja even tidak mencapai target :'(. Syukur saya ada parents yg sentiasa memberikan motivasi dan semangat yang tidak pernah putus-putus . Thank you ayah. thank you mumy. Thank you sekali lagi kepada guru-guru yang selama ini memberikan tunjuk ajar kepada saya also to my friends yg sentiasa membantu bila saya ada kesukaran dalam pembelajaran. Love you all so much ! Muah ! *big hug* hihikss.

Perancangan seterusnya? I still gonna think about it. It's not that simple to  decide something that related to life. It's not like kita pilih baju yang mana sesuai then kita boleh buang baju tu bila rasa tidak suka. Bukan k, ini tentang hidup dan masa depan so saya mesti fikir masak-masak. Fuhh ! bila umur semakin meningkat bukan perkara yang mudah ok, so adik-adik yang ada dekat sekolah rendah tu, beriang-riang lah selagi boleh because age can't turn back and become more young but we are become old.

Selama menunggu result ni saya banyak berjalan. Pernah nampak wall art macam dekat belakang saya tu? It's cool right? So singgah lah dekat Bandar Kota Kinabalu depan suria sabah tu hehe.

Ini sahaja cerita saya hari ini. Tunggu entry saya yang seterusnya okay? love you muahh ! ^________^

Need Confident

Assalamualaikum

When it's about feelings, there must be so many kind of emotion. Sad, happy, confuse, and any else. It's also hard to understand sometimes and always need a solution and the solution sometimes it's too complicated . What make it complicated? it is because of ourself isn't ? . Confused is what i feel now and it is too complicated and hard to understand what the situation now. The pain that i feel is because of me. Because of my mistake and now I  had to face it . What I need now is confident ! need more confident ! that is my problem. My big problem ! until now I still don't have that confident.

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New year yang terlepas

Asalammualaikum w.t.b.
Lama beno gua menghilang. Memang hati mau sangat mengisi, mencoret dan mencarut di blog ni tapi semangat je yang kurengss sket. :'( Ohhhh btw samada sedar tidak sedar i'm free from SPM! free from being  a stressfull student!. Buat sementara wakutu sahaja sebenarnya nanti-nanti sudah dapat sambung belajar stress balik.. That is what we call life. Right? ehh pesal gua sound like mature ?? Pelik tapi benar. haha

Anyway saya yang sudah terlambat mau juga wish happy new year everyone!!!. Like always lah kan tiap new year orang-orang sibuk mau tanya azam baru. Actually saya still dengan azam tahun lepas. Banyak lagi yang belum tercapai (-_-'').  Dr Fadzly ada cakap kalau azam yang lepas belum tercapai jangan memandai buat azam baru. Betul juga kan, lebih baik kita kecapi dulu azam yang belum tercapai lagi then baru mau fikir pasal azam-azam baru ni.

Banyak betul lah  kenangan manis dan pahit 2013, and kenangan yang paling berharga  is the exam.. ya Allah, betapa penatnya kitaorang menempuhi hari-hari exam SPM itu. Tidur kurang, makan kurang, main kurang and semua lah kurang. Apa yang perlu ialah study, study, dan study. Stress!! Batch 96 dan keatas memang faham beno lah apa yang gua cakap ni.. adik-adik bawah umur yang belum lepas pmr lagi or yang baru lepas pmr tu rasa lah korang bila tiba spm. Menangis you alls! time tu lah terasa hidup ini memang mencabar seperti dipukul ombak ganas ! seperti berjalan diatas duri-duri durian, seperti mereda hutan tebal dan sewaktu dengan nya..sorry gua bukan sastera so harap maklum bila keluar pepatah hangkang tu hihihi. Mohon student sastera jangan lempang saya k..

SPM sudah habis weii !!. . Dulu before habis SPM kitaorang selalu berangan mat jenin . Konon-konon bila lepasan mau enjoy tak payah fikir pasal benda lain melainkan enjoy. Siapa kata menunggu result tu enjoy?? menyeksakan okay! sakit hati! . Harap lah result tu buat saya bangga.. Jangan buat saya merana k? **pesanan buat result !**

Haa cakap pasal lepasan ni, ramai juga kawan-kawan yang kerja time cuti ni and ramai la juga tanya saya ada dekat mana time cuti-cuti malaysia ni. My answer is.. Gua cuti dekat rumah jew.. Mencomelkan berat badan dengan menghabiskan beras mak bapak! tapi gua ada la juga buat niaga online nanti engkorang check it out ya.. link nya ada dekat post gua yang sebelum-sebelun ni,...tu haa dekat bawah. Terima kasih ^^

Siapa yang tanya pasal pakwe tu? ehh ada sorang tu tanya pasal pakwe tempoh hari. Ok fine aku membujang k, melainkan kau carikan gua satu. Pastikan dia serupa dengan sir chief**Becareful with my heart actor** Sebijik ! boleh? hahaha , gurauan semata-mata k.
Lama sudah kah saya mencoret ni? rasa macam pendek jeee.. pasal idea kurangss lah ni.. nanti lain kali gua updet lagi yee..

nah saya belanja selfie. hihi

Please Visit My Online Shop At facebook. Now I have a Promotion !! Free shawl!

                                                              Assalamualaikum..
Alahai.. lama betoi kite menghilang , ada yang rindu?? . Siapa lah saya ni kan mau di rindu-rindu :'(
hahaha !. Well guyss guess what ?? I'm free now !! free from SPM. Thank God ! Bahang stress tahap pertama sudah lalu. Now, I just wait and see howmy result. Can't wait( sound excited!) . Actully saya mau cerita juga pasal pengalaman SPM ni..tapi nanti I cerita lain kali K??

Hari ni mau cerita pasal my new page on facebook. Selepas habis exam ni, saya terus buka page saya di Facebook. Selalunya orang lepas SPM keluar pergi cari kerja kan? actully my friend ask me to join them to find a job at our town , but I'm not think that i'm ready for that , but i'm not saying that i dot want keyy ..
So i decided to be a dorship and selling on facebook.

This is my page

Please visit my page, then like it and yang paling penting beli okay? Please..please..please :'(

Oh ya before i forgot.. Sekarang saya ada buat promotion tauu... Sesiapa yang membeli dalam harga RM50.00 ke atas , akan mendapat one shawl/scarve free! pilihan shawl/scarve dibuat mengikut kegemaran anda sendiri. Just pilih mana satu yang kamu mau. Cuma 6 orang terawal sahaja yang berpeluang untuk mendapatkannya. Selepas saya mendapat 6 orang tersebut, promotion ini akan ditutup. Promosi ini akan berakhir pada 4 november 2013. 

So apa tunggu lagi ! Hurry ! Free tuuuu!