assalamualaikum.
It’s been a long time that I didn’t show up in my blogging world and to be
honest, I don’t know what exactly I want to write today! Since I have been in long
term holiday. Longer than
anyone, I’ve been watching a lot of reality television programme and I really
attractive to the story of the little people story on TLC channel, like Our Little
Family, Little people Big World and The Little Couple. These three stories is
about how these little people so independent by taking their responsibility. They
shows how’s their life. They shows their daily life. I have been inspired by them.
They might be small than a normal person but they have the confidence which I the
normal person did not have it and I wish I could have the same confidence like they
are. They can do anything, go everywhere they wanted and sometimes more
challenging than a normal person. All they have is that confidence and
determination. Oh man! That is what I always wanted in my life! I didn’t get it
yet but In She Allah soon. I will work on it.
Okay! I am done with the shows. To be honest, I
have been working for this writing for a few days before. The day when I’m the
only one in the house who still watching TV and took my late snack and start
wrote on the book. I know. You can stop laugh now. Internet tak dak! Takut idea
lari. Terpaksa guna buku. But hey! I proud course I made a comebackkkkkk! Haha
This story is pointless but hey! Nobody cares.
Nobody want to read this and that is my point. Since I’m not good on telling
people a story. I’m possibly a good listener but so bad on sharing story.
Failure on express my own feeling because I’m thinking that people might be not
interested with my dummy story and I might be a super annoying person to them.
My friends called me mysterious because they know less about me. Haha! But
peeps, trust me it’s hard to find a person who we can trust. Carry our own
feelings, our own secrete is the best choice we have but MOM knows everything
even we hide under bed haha!
These few month are so bad! This punishment is
killing me! My mind is so messy, especially for my future plan. I feel that I
totally screw everything! I have no idea what I’m going to do. I have no plan.
I am thirsty or confidence. Leak of motivation. I start to feel that I am the
looser or more even worst. I know I should not feel this way but I kind of
searching for the answer or a problem solver! I don’t want some kind of metaphor
words in speech. I want a final answer like the examination question of mine! Some
people just give up on their way, but I think I haven’t push enough my effort to
be better but in the same time I just can’t think a better ways. I assume that
my brain is not good enough or maybe it’s useless? Haha!
The
older I am I become to realize that life is not easy like in my dream when I
was a kid. It’s worst! They said life is too short, so we should make our every
single moment to be a joyful and full of happiness. Most of those people I seen
in the reality shows was so strong to face their problem. How can they be so
positive?? I wish I can be that kind of person. I tried but still don’t have that
strength.
As I mention before, this story is pointless.
My super humble dummy story I don’t expect for a reader but kalau ada juga
mohon maaf kerana terpaksa menyusahkan anda dengan membaca my broken English
ni. Orang cakap practice make perfect kan? Haha!
Buah cempedak di luar pagar,
ambil galah tolong jolokkan,
saya budak baru belajar,
salah silap tolong tunjukkan.
